My last day as a young person

Here I am enjoying my last day as a 3o something. A new decade rolls out in front of me full of new adventures and unexpected experiences. I feel weird. For the first time in my life I am not too excited about having a birthday. Lately I felt like the 40s were creeping up on me and they were making me feel them. Haven't been taking much care of myself and as a result I feel old. Not that I think that 40 is old, but it is older than 39 and it is a scary number. Too much stress this year, uni has been good but hard, didn't give time to do much else and despite liking it, it is quite a heavy burden to carry at this age. That is the other thing I have been thinking about as a prelude of my birthday...what have I accomplished? Is it enough for all the years I lived?

Mi ultimo dia de 39 anos. Una nueva decada se desenvuelve delante mio llena de aventuras y experiencias nuevas e inesperadas. Me siento un poco rara, porque por primera vez no estoy muy contenta de cumplir anos...ultimamente siento que los 40 se acercan y se estan haciendo sentir, que un dolor aqui, que otro alla. Ya se que no estuve cuidandome mucho ultimamente, con tanto trabajo y el estress de la facultad, no he tenido mucho tiempo para preocuparme de mi estado fisico (una excusa ya se) y eso me hace sentir vieja. No que piense que 40 es vieja pero es mas vieja que 39 y asusta un poco el numero. Me acuerdo cuando mi papa la cargaba a mi mama cuando iba a cumplir 40 y le decia "Mary, vas a cumplir coooooaaaaarenta", no parece que fue hace tanto! Pienso....cuales son mis logros? Son suficientes por todos los dias que vivi?